Day 581 – Image, I am age Part 2

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Day 580 - Image, I am age Part 1

Day 580 - Image, I am age Part 1

Day 580 - Image, I am age Part 1

What have I become but and Image, since I was a child, my parents told me, this is your body, this is you. I have been shown photos where my body was being represented, and I was told, look it is you, somehow the connection between who I am and my body as being who I am has been made inseparable.

I accepted and allowed this, I know, because I know I had to LEARN it, it did not come naturally to me as who I am, I had to, as a child, become aware of my fingers, my toes, my arms, my legs, and this took time, and once I was aware of them, I could use them, I could move them, I could now express myself with my body, the one thing that was natural that I didn’t have to learn, was that I am HERE, the I who learned to use the body. People call this the “soul” - I do not, as the soul has been made something more than the physical, which is also a lie, I am the Physical, the principle, the LAW – I came into one part, one expression of this LIFE to express myself as the LAW, as the Principle as LIFE in a Form that is in the Image and Likeness of LIFE in its expression form, as the image and likes of LIFE/GOD/Principle is all that is here as the physical, as all substance. But I look on a literal meaning t this that is of the mind, I created a false image and likeness of myself as an actual image and likeness as the form/flesh that I took on. Which has now become my own prison, my own cell, as I trapped myself in all the cells of the body as an Image to maintain an image, to become an Idle God, a god carved out of stone, and like a statue unable to move as LIFE, as the Image I took on of the mind as the form/body has now been limited to energy expressions only, and not life expression, where I as ALL of me as LIFE can express through the body, instead of just within the body as the body, which is now creating an internal engine, the Mind engine, that consumes itself, because I have locked myCELLf into my cells, in my body apart from the ALL of me as LIFE, I now only have access to one energy source, which is my body, and thus the MIND as the false Image and Likeness is now Mining my physical body to maintain itself, and so the Image starts to become of age, as the age that I am, where I now need to constantly feed and maintain this image not only with food and water, but also with energy, I need to pray/prey daily to this image that I like, through looking and praising the image and generating feelings/emotions and thoughts around it, to proof that the image is in my Likeness, may it be negative or positive, the mind does not care, it seeks energy, that is its Mining business – energy at any cost, and the cost will be the grave, as I praised graven images of my form/body and seeing/believing it is who I am, and thus I can never be still and know that I am god, as I know that I have only limited myself as an image in the likeness of the mind as limited energy for self-interest. So I have lost all contact with Who I AM as Life, as all substance in the universe, and thus the true source of LIFE/energy that is me, that is abundant and always Gives as I would like to receive, that always do onto me as I would like to be done onto within the best interest of all life in all ways, the rest of me as my godly me as the true image and Likeness of me as LIFE that is set in no form but all forms and that which is formless can now not work through me as me, as I have internalized myself into a tiny mind that consumes itself and changes its form/image all the time to keep the false idols, graven images alive through ageing, so that I can say I AM AGE!! I am but only human, I am but only powerless, I am but only a slave.

The Image I have accepted and allowed over my entire life spam, since Birth, as an actual Picture instead of actuality as who I am as Life as the image and likeness of the Universe, has become so warped, so complicated, where the image I have seen and then made me, as a positive or negative or both, as something that is Good/bad or a mixture, as something that others “like” or “dislike” as something that I can be proud of, that I can honour, that I can praise and indulge within, all within self-interest for the mind, and this I have lived – but as all false images it cannot last, as with age the image changes and the truth is revealed of who I have accepted and allowed myself to become, the sexiness/ugliness goes away and who I have defined myself according to the image will fall, and who will I be? When my images, false god’s fall? When my hair falls out, when my teeth rots, when my muscular body becomes weak, when I get food problems, when the mind has finally mined the body for the sake of the image as the body/flesh that I have defined myself too, only then will the mind be revealed for its true nature, its destructive self-interest drive that I have stood as one and equal. When old age comes and my body looks like a rotten fruit, a dried out fruit, only then will I see in regret that I have lived and praised a false god, and as all regret is useless, as we/I cannot re-get the moment/opportunity where I could have changed, and the consequences will be Faced.

Self-forgiveness to take self-responsibility is the only way, here and no further. As we can see the confirmation of our self-interest living as images are reflecting onto our planet as a whole, the graves are everywhere, as death has been revealing to us that we have only been batteries that live to die for the purpose of generating energy for a short time, as we are mining the earth to death, as we mine ourselves to death, for the exact same reasons – false energy, energy of the mind, for temporary moments of “living” and “entertainment” for profit and gains that are temporary – when we look at the face of the earth, it is Ugly, it’s destructive, which shows us the earth has been mined, the Image of the earth is resembling that of a dying old man/women, the same as what we are doing to ourselves – as within so without.

The bodies purpose, is but to be a reference point for self as all life placed at/in one singular point to cross-reference and navigate through the expression of life in this form for the purpose to be creators, to express our utmost potential and to enjoy life as ALL one and equal, not to be creators of limitation as we are currently in, as enslavement, fear and survival. If this does not work out then we will simply stop through our own self destruction and that of this expression called earth as part of ourselves as we function in all ways with the principle/law of oneness and equality that is universal.

Day 580 - Image, I am age Part 1

Image
I am age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live/exist as an image, where this image has become in my mind who I am, as the age that I am at and how that age as the image tells me of my age and thus who I must be, or should be.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that all my life I have defined myself according to my age as the image that my age has become/shown as the form of my physical body and to within this change each time who I am as my physical form as the Image changes within the believe that it is who I am, seeing and realizing that the image isn’t who I am as my physical form and that who I am also isn’t my age/image.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire for myself to be a certain age to be able to present a certain image, where I am defining myself according to my age and thus what I am capable of doing or not doing, and to within this limit myself within what I do as I am determining who I am within what Image/age I am at.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that as long as I look at what AGE I Am, as the IMAGE that I have and can project onto reality within the believe that people will only listen/hear or respect me when I am that certain age – that I am determining everything about myself based on a from as my physical body and how it ages on what I am doing with my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself within the Image that I am representing as my physical body/form currently through believing that my image/form is who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow within me what my parents have trained me to believe since I was a baby where they would praise my body as being cute, handsome and so forth as making it about who I am as a being/life and thus I started taking their words and internalizing it within me where it became my thoughts/thinking and how I am associating who I am with my Image/form.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed by society to believe that who I am is my image and that if my image is a certain way then it means that I must be that certain way.

I forgive myself that I haven’t seen and realize how extensive this image point is, how I have lived most of my live as the IMAGE of my physical form as who I am, and to within this I have completely missed who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a sense of loss, sadness for how have missed this point my entire life, and how I have in fact indulged in this Image point as making the image my physical form presents who I am, as I had an advantage within my image above others and what society “likes” more, gives favor to more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge in the Image that I am/have become as who I am, and to within this design and create my life according to my image and what I believe my image can do for me or not do for me in the eyes of the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a Mage, where I play with my Image as creating energy within others through how I present myself and how I move my image as a system to manipulate and “charm” and to sway people.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value into the image that my physical body presents, self-value, who I am, when I know as all and everyone else know, this image dies at death, and yet I keep on doing it, just because I am receiving some form of energy from people, the system of being accepted and if my image is a bit better than others I may even be treated better or get further in the system without having to work as hard.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to confuse my Image with who I am and to within this live this confusion of who I am and my image, always conflicted within myself as being good looking and not good looking and within this also then experience myself accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give Images value, especially my own image.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that as long as I hold images within me that are false as to who I am, where all images are false within who I am that I will not know who I am as I will confuse images with what is real, as the physical as the substance as LIFE.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I am all forms, all images and to hold one image within me that I am identifying myself as then I am in separation of all forms as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from Life as all forms through limiting myself within the believe that I am only one form/image and that this form/image defines me and who I am, and that I did this even with the knowledge of death and that death is the one point that can reveal to oneself what is real and what is not as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attaché value and energy experiences to images/forms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value some images/forms more than others, instead of seeing and realizing that when all forms/images are from the same substance of life and that not one or more can have different values within me as an energetic experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create values within me towards images where I am literally attracted to certain images, and also where I oppose other images, creating a polarity construct within me in relation to how I view/see reality, which isn’t from a physical practical stand point, but from a polarity design construct of what I personally am attracted to or oppose instead of what works best and that is practical for all, such as my own Image that I have create attraction towards and where I oppose certain parts, and within this view reality from my own self judgments of my own Image and Likeness, which makes my view point Bias and not trust worthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire some/certain images and features of these images within others as I have defined myself as an image and to within this self-definition of my image separated myself from all images, which now creates a desire/attraction within me towards what I have separated from me as Images, instead of being here as all forms/images one and equal and to realize that I am all forms/images and that what I desire in others is simply parts of me that I have not embraced.

A twist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and my life based on my own image and likeness, and to within this limitation live and express as this limitation ONLY, where the true Image and Likeness of ALL life is one and equal and there is no separation and within changing my understanding of that I am life in fact then I can take Image and likeness to a different perspective, where all LIFE is the image as one and equal and the likeness is that we are all in fact alike in substance even though there are different forms, and thus I as my New defined image and Likeness stand as LIFE one and equal as what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I age as I am living as an image, and because I live according to an image of limitation of man as where age has meaning and purpose, I age deliberately and participate within the aging process of humans for the sake of becoming certain images for my survival in this current world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through living as an image to confirm that I am age, I am something that ages, that must get old, as I know and understand that images are created through energy within the mind where energy of the mind is never real and lasting, and thus through me accepting and allowing myself to exist as this energy as and of the mind as an image, then I will also not exist once I am done ageing as the Image and be no more, and thus I am one and equal to what I stand by, accept and allow.

Day 548 – Shaving my Head Bald, and what changed – Self Honesty

Yesterday I shaved ALL my hair off once again, plus putting a razor to my head so that it is smooth and shiny. My head is still very white and has to adapt to the rest of my bodies skin tone, so it looks a bit funny at first, like it really is sticking out. 

I sat in the bathroom in front of a mirror on a chair with the hair clippers in my hand, I was a bit nervous doing it, But I made a decision and I followed through, I turned the shaver on and started buzzing all my hair off, then I cleaned up and went to the sink to start and now really getting all my hair off with the raiser, this was fun.

 When I started shaving I could feel a sense of comfort within myself after the initial nervousness, and I got really relaxed within doing so, as I have returned to some part of myself that I have been suppressing or hiding from the world.

This I found quit interesting, because I used to be bald for a long time before, for at least 5 years or so, but I started growing my hair back about a year and a half ago when I started a new business venture. Initially I was bald starting this business venture and I did this for about 6 months, I was extremely comfortable with myself, and what was more fascinating was that everyone noticed me and remembered me and enjoyed me being bald, may it be business people or just normal people from all walks of life, BUT kids found me most fascinating and always wanted to touch my head and feel it, because they do not usually see a guy that is bald.

The whole reason for me being bald previously was because of a stance I made, a decision I made and where shaving my hair and keeping it shaved was for LIFE, a commitment to life, to when I always shave my hair there is this deep connection I have formed, like a reminder of why I am here, what I am doing and that I will do this till it is done, to walk my process and to change myself and rebirth myself as life and to within this process accumulate global change with everyone else that takes on this active journey together one and equal.

So now, back then when I was fist bald, I really got used to it and it was way more practical for daily living and just better I have found, which I enjoyed a lot, but there was now dozens of other people around the world with Desteni that has made the same stance and commitment within shaving their hair, some only did it to get over it and face some real deep shit attached to hair, which can be social, family, society I mean hair goes deep within what the human has made out of it, mostly sexuality, and with me starting a business the fear arise within others in my environment (that wasn’t part of Desteni) that me being bald and the reason for it might affect business and what I do.

So I made the decision to grow my hair back and to see if having hair makes a difference, but this decision didn’t compromise my commitment or stance at all. I remained the same. So after 6 months of doing business bald and then a year and a half of doing business with hair, I have found that there was absolutely no difference for me. Because I didn’t change, it was always about whom I am and thus what I do and how I express myself. Even if people did find it interesting or different at first, it was actually an amazing connection point I have found within Business, because NO one forgets me, no one confuses me, and everyone can recognize me from afar, this changed as soon as I grew hair, people found it difficult to make that initial connection and remember me, but I kept going with it, trying to “fit” into the system more, and in fact I fit in so much that I just became one of the system people again.

So, while I was Bald and had a shaved head, people always asked me why are you bald, and I would answer them, saying that I do this as a commitment to self-change and changing the world, plus it is way more practical, and guess what, people LOVE to see other people that is committed and to what lengths one is willing to go to live for something, it shows a certain “character” that isn’t seen much in this world.

Here I am, bald again – I tested out both side of the same coin for myself, I have realized it is always about who I am and how I define and stand within points/challenges – and that people’s reactions is always one and equal to the stance that I have within me as who I am, if I am insecure or feel there is something to hide or to not get people’s attention to something that I have judged as Bad, then that is exactly what people will do, If I see myself standing in a group that is global and having a shaved head with dozens of others for the same principle as bad, or cultist, guess what, that is what it becomes and shows me that I am not clear within myself and that I haven absolutely taken a stance. This is the principle of the universe, oneness and equality, and this isn’t about image and looks, that’s not what the universe stand one and equal to, but with the substance of everything here and how we are using/directing the substance as ourselves within ourselves.

This is my experience within the point, I have tested all things within this point and keeping what is best for all life, including myself to be at my utmost potential.

This was an interesting test for myself to see and realize I am the source, the master, the creator and as long as I give the system power over me, then that is what I will create and manifest (bad things), if I accept and allow the system to over throw my stance within who I am as standing as Life as what is best for all, even in the slightest reason/justification and not standing, then the system continues, I cannot con the system as long as I am conning myself, deceiving myself, living in perceptions and ideas of society.

Self-Honesty

If you can be bald and make/create it to affect your reality in a way that is best for all, Do so, take the stance, go baldly where no one has gone before. It is what I/you make of it - but be self-honest about your decision, which one ever it is.

Side note: All the women and men in the world should go bald – this way we can really get men and women on a “equal” eye view, wouldn’t that be interesting, how will men change towards women and women toward men? By removing a major part of the image for real, of the mind, and lets deal with each other as BEINGS, not things – and of course dress the same (most practical clothing for both human forms that is the same). Real empowerment. Love the person for who they are and not how they look, putting that saying into practical living application globally.