You have no idea what happens after death, and you are
incapable of bridging that gap, because what happens after death is so much
more, and so vastly more in every way possible that you are currently in this
world that you are, simply in a wink of an eye disappear – you are in the
context of the universe, which are supposed to be equal with, you are equal to
only one thought that you are having in your head… Listen to the full interview
by Bernard Poolman
Breathe – ok, while listening to this interview, I was
brought back to reality a lot more, in the sense of reality within and without,
taking another look at life, a deep look. With the common sense presented
within this interview, I simply cannot ignore the common sense and so the
implications, and for me when something has an implication within common sense,
I must investigate that implication and take what I see and apply it, make it
real, LIVE the common sense practically and realistically. It sound easy, yet
the mind is a fuckup/we are a fuckup, and what Bernard discussed proofs itself
once again, we are fucked, unless we stand up as life/universe.
If I had to die today, something happens and I die. People
will not give a fuck, I mean, people will possibly feel a bit “sad” and then “morn”
for a few days, but before you know it – nothing really changed, I am simply
one less human on earth. Everyone else goes on with their lives, surviving,
making money, chasing dreams and all the crap the system mislead people into
chasing, and stress about emotional and mental problems and family issues,
relationship issues, sexual issues, drug and alcohol issues, addictions,
habits, patterns, people will simply fall into “life” again and forget.
I can say this because this is my honest experience that I have
had throughout time. When Bernard died, many people were sad, many cried, many
felt a “loss” – Dozens of people wrote blogs of honoring Bernard and what he
stood for and to honor that through their living/standing as he did. It did
not take a lot of time and even such a commitment and honoring is lost, gone,
as we can see throughout the years almost no one stood and lived as he did, even
after writing blogs openly for all to see. I mention this point, because this
point reveals a lot and just how fucked we are.
When I look at family members or friend who have died, they
have all left my memory, my life, they are gone, I barely consider them ever, it’s
over, it is gone, LIFE as we call this mess of a world we have accepted and
allowed and so our MIDS as the fuckup we need to end, simply takes over and
nothing matters, and we are back into our own SELF-INTERESTS and putting faces
on, playing games, fucking around and consider nothing really except a single
thought that pops into our heads and give that attention.
The point that came through for me within listening to this
interview is – I have to care a fucking lot about myself as LIFE, as the
UNIVERSE, end the thoughts, feelings and emotions and fucking get real with
real implications of common sense.
The point that hit a nail for me is where Bernard says, we
are supposed to stand equal as the universe (here consider that implications in
fact in practicality, not as a feeling) and yet we only stand equal to a
fucking thought, so when we die, that’s all we exist as, and like a fly, we
will simply be smacked and removed, as all we existed as was a nuisance, a pest,
something that only cares for itself, and so no relevance.
I write the way I do to keep it real for myself, real with myself,
and so I can get to self-honesty, this process includes Self-forgiveness. My
writings according to what came up for me listening to the interview is below.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to keep
myself alive as a personality with a face that I present to the world outside
of myself, as to uphold a face that “fits” in, where this face is only necessary
within this system to a degree, yet selling myself out as LIFE in fact, not
considering that when I DIE with eternity ahead of me, I will have fucked only myself
through selling myself out to keep face,
thus showing me who I have accepted and allowed myself to become and so
exposing my dishonesty as who I accept and allow myself to be for the sake of
self-interest.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see and realize that the faces I am paying, putting on now within this world
is a reflection of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become over
eons of time, and so to stop these faces and deception of SELF, I must face
hard truths/realities of myself and this existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
be trapped within this world design and so live a life where I trap myself within
the games of this world design all for the sake of survival/fear, not
considering that I will die, and so who the fuck am I then?
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see and realize that as long as I stand as thoughts/feelings/emotions that I
will not exist after death, as I can only be what I stand equal and one to, and
thus I am not standing as LIFE/Universe and so I will simply be non-existent.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
make the world system SO FUCKING IMPORTANT and my survival within it that I neglect
myself and even abandon the fact and implications of LIFE itself as an eternal existence
and so who I am as that in fact, and to rather make my MAIN focus on me
standing and BIRTHING myself as life, instead of making money, surviving,
caring only about my relationships, my emotions, feelings and thoughts that is
limited and confined to a temporary system of enslavement.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
NOT see and realize that if I am only surviving within this temporary system
and making that my focus as my life mission, and so Not make it my purpose to
first and foremost rebirth myself as life, then at DEATH I would have achieved
nothing but for a system to continue to exist that abuse and for myself to then
NOT exist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
make survival more important than re-birthing myself as life, thus not seeing, opening
up the points of I can survive with the intention of making that survival mean something
that matters, where I survive to be able to have an opportunity to rebirth myself
and so birth the possibility for others to also rebirth and so as more people rebirth
the more we are able and capable of implementing a new world system that can
give ALL life an equal and one opportunity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
NOT consider that when I die I have NO fucking clue what is after death, as I
have not rebirth myself as LIFE as one and equal, and so death exists for me,
where I simply end, thus not seeing and realizing that re-birthing self as life
here is to be the universe, in living or in death.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
JUSTIFY the FACES I play of that having GOOD intentions, that thee faces I play
will LATER bear benefits to life, and so in the meantime I must sacrifice myself
and give myself up – not seeing and realizing that no one gives a fuck, no
matter how good I think I am, when I die, people won’t care, and so I am still
with me, and I did noting real and concrete for myself, so then I am fucked and
fucked everything else by playing faces and deception to deceive and “survive” with
good intentions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
sell myself, my own rebirth as life out to a justification of survival, for the
system that is here within the starting point of self-interest, playing games
of deceptions with others to see who likes who and who will benefit who and in
the end, end up with death where I am all alone, all by myself and everyone else
now do not give a fuck anymore, so all for nothing but temporary experiences of
thoughts/characters that end.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
continue living as a character within the ignorance that death will not come
for me, as if I have all the time in the world and can play just a little
longer and then later change, yet death is sudden and out of one’s control, and
one has to stand always regardless.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see and realize that petty things I am participating within my life is the
small things that keep myself from re-birthing.
I forgive myself that I have Not accepted and allowed myself
to see and realize that all the personal things such as entertainment,
happiness, joy, purpose within this world system, goals of one’s own personal
life only, and so on is that which keeps me occupied from focusing first and
foremost on myself while living within this world.
I forgive myself that I have NOT seen and realize that re-birthing myself as life takes survival as an experience out of life, as I am
already living, alive throughout eternity as the universe and so using the
excuse of I must survive becomes an excuse and exposes it as just that, as one can
survive yet does not have to fear it, or live in the stress of it, or fall in
the trap of only focusing on that, as re-birthing mean one is HERE alive as Life
for eternity.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live
as less than life through the participation within thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
NOT care for myself within the consideration of death and so the implications
of death and who I am within and as LIFE here and hereafter.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
make my life and who I am about and around other people as if what they think
of me, or believe of me, or perceive of me as something that is going to
rebirth me as life, when in fact literally has nothing to do with it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
CARE about what others think of me in the mislead idea that what others think
of me define me and so will give me access to LIFE as eternity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive
myself within the false idea that hat others think of me will determine who I
am, thus missing the point of I must rebirth myself as life as NO idea, no
belief, or opinion and stand as eternity as who I am that stands as life as
what is best for all life.
I forgive myself that I have NOT honored myself through
standing as LIFE as who I am, and so dishonor life and myself through standing
as characters/faces and fake smiles that will end at death and only contributed
to abuse and nothing of actual value.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dishonor myself through giving into the fake smiles, fake characters as if
they will open the gates of heaven to me, and so deceive everyone and play
games with everyone within and from a point of self-interest to be in the “good
books” to make it to heaven, yes the truth of such acts are evil in nature, dishonesty
and deception, and f that I what lets people into heaven, then heaven is full
of devils.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see and realize the common sense implications of that when I die and there
is NO god, then I am fucked, as I am then all alone, and who I am will
determine everything, not some entity made up in the minds of humans.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
make my “personal” and “petty” problems so fucking important that it consumes
my life and swallows me into self-interest and so basically already make myself
irrelevant and thus non-existent as all I care about is myself, my problems,
how tired I am, how hard I work etc, and not give a second of my time to LIFE
as who I am in fact.
I will end here for today. As a reminder this is my blog, my
writings (my points) anything that you misinterpret or take the wrong way, or
even act in ways from reading this blog, that’s your points, so take it, write
self-forgiveness and end the thinking, get physical and real in breath. Thank
you.
