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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always be angry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed anger to be my driving force. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Anger gives me power. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I require the EMOTION of anger to make my points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will not be heard if I do not speak with anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear someone attacking me with words and so Use ager to try and push others away from attacking me, to win immediately. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am powerless without emotion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use anger as a way of attacking and defending myself all at once. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am defined by my angry way or approaching things. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that anger equal passion. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to confuse making a point with having to be and sound angry. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must force everything I say and force what I want to be heard through using anger.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I have become addicted to anger as a way to drive myself, where I now react to myself reacting every time something is said or done in anger and so lose myself completely in emotions. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ANGER as emotion is valid as it seems upstanding, it seems like a force to be reckoned with, when in fact I know it has become my weakness, where anger consumes me and I can not see straight, communicate straight or have proper conversations anymore. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get DRUNK on the emotion of anger, fear and stress. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the anger that comes up within me is ME, and so have created a relationship with anger where I now can not stop it unless I retract myself and isolate myself for a long while to release it as a consequence. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a constant state of anger which then turns into a state of misery, where I am miserable with myself as I can not communicate properly anymore, interact with my environment properly anymore, where I have become a separate part of reality due to being so sensitive to be triggered. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to GIVE away my true power, the power to be here in silence through selling myself out to a false power such as emotion as ANGER that only creates an entity over time and so consume me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I feel the slightest point of threat in my reality, especially towards the things I deep important and valuable, to go into a happy trigger mode within myself of anger, building up anger and all the back chat that goes with it, till I am a loaded gun that is ready to fire, and so when I do fire I miss, as the energy like lightning is unpredictable. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can control the energy of anger, only to be shown that the mind knows me best and will use me against me as long as I believe I can play with the devil, instead of stopping and breathing and thus giving myself true power, the power and freedom from emotions/feelings/thoughts. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be very self-conscious where my awareness of me turns against me, as my awareness of me as thoughts, as feelings and emotions are not an awareness of me, but of the mind, and so I am not aware of e as breathe and only the mind as energy which then turns against me in any moment to generate energy, to take everything personal and make everything personal, which results in anger towards myself for not stopping and breathing and so taking it out on the world as frustration and irritation of my own self-consciousness that turns into insecurities. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry when I perceive someone else to be doing something wrong. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry when I perceive myself doing something wrong. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry when I believe someone else is doing something I would NEVER do as a way to defend myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use anger to hide behind the anxiety I am experiencing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by replacing one emotion such as anxiety with anger that I am solving the problem within me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is a problem within me and so go into emotions fighting an invisible problem. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a problem.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a problem as who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in the fear of being a problem.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a problem. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself a problem, to make what I express and want to do a problem. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold myself back in the fear of being a problem. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use anger as a way to become a problem for others as to avoid the topic of discussion from being a problem. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having any anger, no reactions and to simply express myself direct here in calmness, silence and slow movement. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself and so use anger to hide myself. 

I forgive myself that I have not seen and realized that everything I become through participating in anger is the very things that fuck up everything I express and for it to not have success. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dis-empower myself with anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dis-empower myself through going into emotion or being in emotion. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that the very things I believe I must participate within that I believe will make me strong is exactly what makes me weak and not capable of doing anything. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must be a certain way, act a certain way and always respond in a certain way, instead of being here as breath as me in my body relaxed, genuine and real. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must have a response, a reaction to what ever people say or do around me as to show that I a interacting, I am here and that I am participating, yet always compromise myself by following these thing as they generate energy, emotion and is a form of manipulation and putting on a fake face. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being enough as I am in breathe and that I must be more, have more to say, have responses that are deep and emotional to be taken seriously, and so compromise my actual words and expression of simplicity, no polarity and me direct here with full confidence as who I am, where I leave or have no trail of emotion, only clarity as here as breathe as me living my utmost potential.

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